Today was hard, and it was not hard.
It was not hard because it went by quickly, filled with distractions.
It was hard because through those distractions I had that tiny inner voice that keeps telling things that I believed all through high school:
I'm not very pretty, and I'm not at all thin. These are the things that guys my age value in women. So, obviously I'll never find someone unless I lose about 70 pounds, and become ridiculously thin (much like my boss, but she actually CAN'T gain weight, lucky witch).
I'm not very interesting, and I'm most certainly a nerd. More attributes against me in my life's Search For Love.
While I'm not DESPERATE to get married and pop out a million babies starting right now, today I'd most certainly like just to be held. I miss that. Having someone hold me, and kiss me, and make me laugh. I miss having someone to talk to and share my life with.
-sigh-
A girl can dream, can't she?
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