When in doubt, shoot the messenger. Make sure you don't know that you're not perfect. Make sure that you're absolutely oblivious to anything and everything that might break your little bubble. Pretend that you've never hurt anyone.
Those are the rules you live by, day after day. You can't remember the last time that wasn't true. You pass your time in a state of constant disregard for responsibility.
You know that you're alone. Your blanket of security is gone. You tore it up. You can't fix months of hurt with a single insincere thought.
Don't lie. Don't make promises you can't keep. Don't pity yourself when you've brought all this upon yourself. Don't come crying to those who cared for you when your life falls apart - you pushed them away. You didn't want them. You wanted a change, a new life - you're getting it.
And you won't get me back. You hurt me too many times. I don't trust you anymore. What's done is done. I don't hate you. I'm disappointed in you. I give up on waiting.
I shouldn't have to wait.
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